Don't worry its not you...Ohio sucks the life out of all who it encounters! Had a lonely xmas myself, things will look up they have to. phil j (still in ohio)
phil J
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lonely christmas
by maybesbabies inack!
i can't stand it anymore!
i've been broken up with my boyfriend for two weeks now, and this is my first x-mas alone in 3 years.
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did you ever miss the memorial?
by freelife indid any of you ever miss the memorial while you were in?
i missed 2 of them.
once i had a very serious staff infection in my leg and i could not wear any pants or shorts because it ran all the way up my thigh.
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phil J
Hey freelife, I never missed while I was in that mostly due to my parents. I was sixteen and got the chikenpox in the early spring I was not contagious any more but still had the scabs on my face my parents made me go it was horrible. The whole time I was standing in the back thinking of hiding my face but my parents had to be there forty five minutes before and stay atleast a half hour after. The last one I went to we left after (this was month or two before df) myself and some other faders at the time went to Applebees and did our own "partakeing" of the emblems. We were hammered by the time another group of jws got there, bad very bad.
Years before all that I remember standing in a group of elder servants as they watched a inactive couple bring their children in and sit down. Their statements are some of the most haunting I carry. After sever negative comments the senior brother looked at us and said "If your only going to one meeting a year why would you even bother, not like this one is going to make a difference". We stood there and arrogantly agreed casting a lowly look to the two as they arranged their children before prayer. I feel so bad about that, the same brother after was shaking hands and all smiles to the two. So every spring I think of that event and how they will smile and shake my hand and then say what they feel behind my back. I have even driven by the hall on memorial watched them walk in, I don't know why some innerfear I guess. The end result for me is no I'am not going in, I'll take my chances and stand on my actions when I die. Atleast at one point in my life I will know the truth. Hope thats not to dark of a answer :). phil
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Central Ohio xjw's ?
by phil J inthis is phil j grew up in springfield, was a servant before my fall from grace about three years ago.
looking for some old friends or new ones with a similar back ground.
i'am 27, 6'1" blond hair blue eyes played basketball alot, hung out with aaron w, jon w from springfield.
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phil J
hey we'll stay in touch
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Central Ohio xjw's ?
by phil J inthis is phil j grew up in springfield, was a servant before my fall from grace about three years ago.
looking for some old friends or new ones with a similar back ground.
i'am 27, 6'1" blond hair blue eyes played basketball alot, hung out with aaron w, jon w from springfield.
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phil J
Hi lisa nice to met you. How long have you been out? Where did you move from?
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Central Ohio xjw's ?
by phil J inthis is phil j grew up in springfield, was a servant before my fall from grace about three years ago.
looking for some old friends or new ones with a similar back ground.
i'am 27, 6'1" blond hair blue eyes played basketball alot, hung out with aaron w, jon w from springfield.
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phil J
This is Phil J grew up in Springfield, was a servant before my fall from grace about three years ago. Looking for some old friends or new ones with a similar back ground. I'am 27, 6'1" blond hair blue eyes played basketball alot, hung out with Aaron W, Jon W from Springfield. Also Shane and Stu S from Piqua maybe that will ring a bell. Get in touch if your in the area.